Saturday, July 23, 2016

2016 Pitch Wars Bio!

I'm pulling this website out of retirement for the purposes of Pitch Wars! When you only have a few hours every day to write, the blog falls by the side of the road pretty fast. Apologies to the two people who follow it, and I can't promise consistent posting just yet. Hopefully soon!

My Pitch:

When her young son spirals deep into crisis, a geneticist must risk her career to help him find his donor father. THE ONES WE CHOOSE weaves the science of genetics with the story of a mother desperate to help her son find his place in the world. It will appeal to readers of upmarket women's fiction, blending the high-concept emotional themes of Jodi Picoult with the scientific eye of Lisa Genova. An excerpt from THE ONES WE CHOOSE recently won honorable mention accolades from Glimmer Train's Short Story Award for New Writers.

About Me:

I am a Santa Monica native, single mother to two amazing boys, and a fifth grade teacher for nearly twenty years. I'm one of those writers who does their best work in the early hours of the morning, before the rest of the world wakes up. It's also the only stretch of real time I have when a child isn't needing something.

Last summer, I was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer. I took a semester off from teaching and focused on my treatment and recovery. I was also able to devote some serious time to my writing. I am now happily cancer-free, and can look back on the experience as one of the most positive and transformative of my life.

I am a serious introvert. I like the *idea* of socializing, but actually doing it requires herculean effort to get out the door.

Some of My Favorite Authors:

Shilpi Somaya Gowda
Barbara Kingsolver
Jodi Picoult
Liane Moriarty
Audrey Niffenegger (THE TIME TRAVELER'S WIFE is my all-time favorite book. Ever.)
Anna Quindlen
Michael Connelly (it's a guilty pleasure, this guy really knows how to pace a book)
Allison Winn Scotch
Natashia Deon
Phaedra Patrick
Ann Leary
Marisa Silver
Jhumpa Lahiri
Maria Semple (Bernadette is my fictional BFF)
Sara Gruen
Curtis Sittenfeld (have you read her newest, ELIGIBLE? It's amazing)
Sarah McCoy
Celeste Ng
Anne Lamott
Kristin Hannah
Kate Morton...

This is just a partial list. My reading partner (think writing partner, but just for reading - it's a 5th grade thing) could probably add more. We both struggle with Literary Amnesia (a condition that afflicts voracious readers, often resulting in purchasing books we've already read) so I know I'm forgetting some very important favorites.

What You'll Get if you Choose Me as a Mentee:

My working style is highly collaborative. I love it when my critique partners suggest something I've never considered, and I could happily talk through plot points forever. I'm not afraid to tackle major revisions, if it will make my writing and manuscript stronger. Bring it.

I subscribe to the following writing philosophy:
To get published you must
1) Think of yourself as a worker
2) Show up at the job

If you're looking for someone who will put in the time and effort, someone who won't let life get in the way, that's me. I'm up five days a week at 4:00 AM (sometimes on weekends too, depending on where I am in revisions or drafting). I get at least two hours of writing in before going to work. I will also sneak time in the evenings while my kids do homework or watch TV.

True Confession: Sometimes, when I'm noodling through a particularly troubling plot point, I plug in my earphones and go for a walk, pretending I've got someone on the other end of the phone helping me work through it. There's just something about talking something through out loud that helps me figure things out a lot faster than keeping it in. But don't tell anyone. I'm really not crazy. Really.

Finally, a huge THANK YOU to all the amazing mentors out there who are taking the time to pull another writer up. This is a huge time that will take away from your own writing, your family, your day job...and we are all so very grateful for the opportunity to submit. Good luck to all my fellow applicants out there - there's plenty of room on the shelf for us all.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

How I Got Here From There

I used to write a blog here. I did it as a way to process being a new parent, which then evolved into writing about my decision to get a divorce and the aftermath of co-parenting with an ex-spouse. I stopped writing there mainly because I felt like I had a handle on those things and I didn't have anything original to say on those topics.

A few weeks ago I re-read the later entries that focused on the decision to leave my marriage. Reliving those moments felt very similar to the decision I made a year ago to get serious about my writing. When you're in a miserable marriage you accumulate tiny moments of clarity, hoarding them, trying to make some sense out of them. You lay them out sequentially, hoping they will add up to reveal the answer to a question you don't dare ask aloud. I worked hard to convince myself I was happy enough, that living with someone I didn't really like or respect was good enough. But those moments of clarity accumulated until I had so many I couldn't ignore them any more, and I knew I was living a version of my life that needed to end so the next part could begin.

People often ask, "How did you know you wanted a divorce?" My answer is always the same. "You won't know until you know." There will be one incident, one irretrievable moment when you will just know you're done. Once I made the decision to be on that path, however winding and uncertain it seemed, I was ready to commit to it and next steps unfurled before me.

The decision to get serious about writing happened in much the same way. I've been a teacher for sixteen years. Before that, I wrote and worked at a university. I took creative writing classes through both UCLA and Berkeley, writing, submitting intermittently, and failing.  I was on that path, but I wasn't ready for the work and stamina it required, so I fell into something comfortable and safe. Teaching was hard in a different way, but it was predictable and an enjoyable way to spend my days. I'm a good teacher on most days, and some days I'm a great one. Though it's not my passion, I convinced myself it was good enough, that I was happy enough.

I didn't know I was ready to do something else until a year ago when someone asked me to describe my dreamiest day. I listed all of the predictable things: Sleeping in, reading, going out to lunch or dinner with friends, having time to exercise. But once my dream day was over I'd be back to my regular life and work, which made me angry and resentful. Happy enough was no longer enough. So I went back and re-framed the question, asking instead to describe my dreamiest life. What I came up with wasn't a surprise. I've always known I would write, and it seemed the time to sit down and actually do it had finally arrived. Those accumulated moments of clarity about what my life was supposed to look and feel like came together, and suddenly I knew. Like my divorce, once I realized what needed to happen, I got busy making that vision a reality as quickly and systematically as I could.

 I wasn't ready to commit to being a writer, until one day, I was.

Friday, November 29, 2013

How Teaching Reading Makes Me a Better Writer

 I'm fortunate to work in a field where I get to talk about reading. Every day. It's usually around ages 9-11 when reading really clicks for most kids, and for the first time they discover the magic of disappearing into another world, another skin, and living somewhere else without ever having to get off the couch. And every year, I get to see it unfold, again and again. I've got a front-row seat while kids disappear before my eyes, falling into books within minutes, emerging only to gasp or laugh out loud into a silent room filled with readers. Often I have to moderate arguments over which books should be read in what order, which books are must-reads and which ones deserve to be read again. These are conversations I have among my own friends - why should it be any different for children?

We can all remember that teacher who killed the love of reading, methodically stomping out any desire to pick up a book on our own. Mandatory book reports and mind-numbing summaries, due like clockwork every 2-4 weeks. Cereal boxes with our character traits, summaries, and fake reviews - intended to make reading fun! and interesting! but instead making them the impetus for ferocious family arguments, usually on Sunday evenings around bedtime. And let's not forget the basal readers, giving us only a small piece of a story and then asking 5-10 mostly literal questions to see whether we were able to stay awake to the very end.

I don't teach reading like that, and luckily very few of my colleagues do either. I'm in the business of growing adult readers, and in order to do that, everything I do as a reader must become explicit. What do I think about when I read? How do I interact with the story, and with others who have also read it? Reading is a social activity, not intended to be done in isolation. Books are meant to be discussed, not summarized. After all, book club members don't sit around re-telling the events of a story to each other, they talk about how that story made them feel, which characters they loved, and which characters they loved to hate. These are the things I show my readers, and every year they fall in love with reading in ways that never fail to thrill me.

So how does this make me a better writer? By shining the light on what makes the reading experience one we keep returning to, over and over again. We think about theme. We think about author's purpose. We think about how the story, characters, and setting impact us and how we choose to live our lives. We lift lines we love, simply because they're so beautifully rendered. We run to the computer and Google events and people from the book to discover how much of it was true, or skip ahead to the Author's Note to see what really happened. We ask ourselves, "What was this book really about? What am I still wondering?" and "How has this book changed the way I live my life?" These are the questions I want students thinking about, and these are the questions I strive to generate when I write.

Every year, I get to study and deconstruct the works of incredibly gifted writers. Patricia MacLachlan. Pam Muñoz Ryan. Katherine Applegate. Jerry Spinelli. Ralph Fletcher. Phillip Pullman. Roald Dahl. Even though I write fiction for adults, there is so much to be learned from how these authors have manipulated plot, built tension, and developed characters. While I'm teaching students to read with agency, with urgency, to grow theories about a character's motivations, to analyze how secondary characters might influence the choices our main characters make, or how a character's problems are transforming into themes, I'm constantly applying these ideas to my own work. I end my days energized by the dialogue of eleven-year-olds.

Without exception, the best writers in my class are voracious readers. They have an ear for how it's supposed to sound, and they're able to apply techniques in sophisticated ways. Excellent writing grows first and foremost from reading quality literature. "What have you read that's like what you're trying to write?" is a question I ask first, before anything else. I ask it of my students, and I ask it of myself.

This is an old revelation. You can throw a brick and hit at least seven people who have already written about the importance of reading if you hope to become a writer. Just this week, I've read four books for pleasure, and it's only Friday. I expect to read at least one more before heading back to work on Monday. There's no mystery in the reading/writing connection. But there's something magical about deconstructing an experience I love in such a transparent way, and watching children transform into lifelong readers because of it. 

I'm a veteran of creative writing courses. All of these concepts have been covered in various ways among the classes I've taken. But when we teach something to others, our mastery of it skyrockets from 70% to 96%. I'm in no way considering myself a master. But I'd be a fool not to take advantage of a situation that helps me view my writing as others will hopefully view a reader who wants nothing more than to fall into a really good story.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Anxious Certainty. It's a Real Condition.

I read an article yesterday in which some very established writers shared their experiences publishing their first books. Across the board, the same things came up over and over:
- Many of them had no clue what they were doing, and are astonished by how very much they DID NOT KNOW.
- All of them were plagued by serious doubts, while at the same time never wavering from the certainty that they would publish a book.

I ping pong between doubt and certainty on a daily basis.  Sometimes hourly. I careen from "What the hell am I doing?" to "This is going to happen. I know it." It's like some kind of writer's bipolar disorder. But after reading that article, I realize I'm afflicted with a very common condition that will resolve itself with diet, exercise, and endless rewrites. 

I feel hopeful. (Right now. Check back in an hour and you might find something drastically different.) I managed to cut my manuscript down to 102,000 words. It's filled with people who are so real to me, I often forget they don't actually exist. A year ago, they didn't. I will spend the next few weeks letting them stand on their own out in the world, waiting to see if I've done my job bringing them to life. 

The miraculous thing about writing is that anything can be rewritten and revised. Unlike life, my characters get unlimited do-overs. 

Sunday, November 3, 2013


NaNoWriMo? More like NaNoRevMo.

All of 2013 has been one long marathon writing session.  Before the boys wake up, I'm brainstorming and working on character development problems. Then I go teach for 6 hours. Then I pick up the boys and parent for 4-5 hours before wrestling them into bed. After bedtime, it's drafting, re-writing, revising, repeat! The days have bled into weeks, which have become months. And now it's November and my query is done, my synopsis is close, my manuscript is ready to go. Except......114,000 words? What I've been studiously ignoring can be ignored no longer. I need to trim at LEAST 15,000 words. I know it. You know it. We all know it. So while other writers are building new worlds, creating interesting characters who face intriguing challenges, all with the goal of having a completed draft of a novel in 30 days,  I'll be hard at work with my red pen, slicing 10-20 words per page.  And strangely, I'm enjoying it. Like all of the other phases of my project, this too is fun in its own way. I'm taking a perverse pleasure in cutting words, phrases, and sometimes entire sentences, from what I really believed was a pretty polished piece. (I'm weird that way, I guess. I also really enjoyed cleaning out the garage when the shredders were coming.)

 I already know I can draft a book in a month. That was January. I can re-write the entire second half. That was February -April. I can undertake deep revisions and solve serious character deficiencies (May-August). I can wait patiently for for readers to read and make suggestions (August-September) and then revise again. I've lost count of the number of manuscript revisions or the number of times I've read the entire book from beginning to end, and still there are parts that delight me when I read them again. So now that it's NaNoWriMo, I feel like a marathon runner on mile 26 being invited to run a 10K. I'm going to participate, but the truth is, this entire year has been an extended NaNoWriMo for me. What's a few more miles?  I have too much momentum behind me to stop now. So every night this month I'll pick up my pen and my pages and trim a little more, so my word count won't be a reason an agent passes on my manuscript.

And I'll keep in mind the quote that's helped keep my ass in the chair every night for the past eleven months: "To publish your book, you must 1) Think of yourself as a worker and 2) Show up at the job."